my eyes are burning...and again, my heart feels like someone ripped it out of my chest and stomped on it, and then put it back in. Jon thinks that I should forgive him of what he had said (look at yesterdays post..if u dont know..) and we should stay together. yeah well I dunno...I just wanna go to Six Flags this Saturday..and then just kinda go our seperate ways...but he doesnt wanna hear it. heres what he said on his xanga: " I love her , but love only goes so fare , i mean i cant see lifing without her , but i also cant stand to be with her alot" I dunno what to do but who cares.  Everythings a mess today...my computer wont work at all...and I cant fix it bc when I try to it freezes up again. UGH!! im surprised its let me stay on this long. My mom is insisting on me getting a job...I dont wanna, im not having a good summer, and I dont think I would be capable of a job, id probly lash out at some innocent person.  And plus...well I dont have much friends, so I cant vent out to them and that sucks. And the friends I have made on xanga arent on...yeh...what a shitty mess. I dunno what to do....I want it all to end....ill probly grow up a friendless, lonely bitter woman...